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She was a beauty that never wanted the prince, or even a king. She always wanted the beast, to piece his heart of pain back together, like a mystical puzzle, ending with the most tender pure eternal love.
My growth started to come when I realized that I do not have to experience life the way I have been told or taught too. Focus on the step in front of you, not the whole staircase, my love.
You're going to have to do what is best for you even when it feels like shit. You have to understand, that what you tolerate and allow in your life is what you will get. When someone show you who they are, when someone shows you that they don't care, when someone manipulates you, when someone is back and forth with you, hot and cold; whatever the circumstances may be...walk away. Do what you have to do and it is not going to feel good, it is going to hurt because there's a bond there, there is some sort of connection. I understand but you have to walk away. You have too start letting go moving forward in this life. You cannot continue to allow people to walk and stomp all over you and your heart and make you feel badly about yourself because they are unhealed. You can no longer stay hoping for change. You cannot do it. It is not fair to you it is not even fair to them. Take a stand for yourself. Even though it hurts to let go, take a stand for yourself. And walk away.
You spent 2023 in survival mode. Let 2024 be your year in revival mode. It is possible to thrive while also experiencing the journey of where we are meant to be. Your heart break was supposed to hurt because it was real for you. Whether or not it was real for them, does not matter because what you felt was genuine. The love you gave them was real. And just because you ended up loving the wrong person does not mean there is anything wrong with you. It does not mean there is anything wrong with the way you love. It just was not meant to be and that is okay.
Where you are right now is temporary. You're only in this space of time for a season. So, honor your heartbreak, learn the lessons you were meant to learn, and let it go. What matters most is how you walk through the fire. One thing about me is I will match your respect and I will also match your disrespect. For the actually record let me kindly and harshly state, the man for you would never put themselves in a position to lose you. That is not the love of your life because if he was he would have communicated and fought for you. It is the silent seasons that build you for success. I think it is ironic that the people who claim to want something real constantly preaching about finding something real, but as soon as they have a real shot at finding it and meet someone real that actually challenges them to be real, that is the exact moment where they draw the line. Let me tell you, the people with standards, they're are going to challenge you to be consistent, real considerate, and real committed. We see it all the time, people wanting something real and always bitching about their exes but as soon as someone real comes along and they are challenged to be the same thing they expect they run and take their avoidant attachment style with them clenching it tightly to their chest. That is exactly where they break and cannot take the relationship anymore. To defend themselves they call you controlling, crazy, tell you that your expectations are too high. I am here to tell you to keep those expectations high, no matter what. The truth behind it all is that it might take you awhile to find someone who can actually meet your expectations and have real consistent standards in your relationship. So for now, anyone who thinks they are above those standards and give a lower level of delivering them absolutely do not belong in your life and they certainly are not the love of your life. Your self-respect has to be greater than any other person you want a connection with. I really like myself, I like me. I know I have issues and my imperfections rear their head often. They are mine though and they are not dangerous, and I know where they are from and I still get to genuinely find true love. Your self respect has to be stronger than your feeling, my love. Always take mixed signals as a no. The right person will never have you feeling that you are not good enough and if they think they can find someone better, let them. Do not let anyone be your source of happiness. That should be you. Allow the universe and God guide you to allow it to be you.
Take the next three months and dontate that time to your future self. Commit to revamping your life in a way that you will thank yourself for in a year. Accept the fact that the next 90 days of your life do not belong to the current version of yourself. It belongs to the future version of yourself. There is nothing that a man should fear more than a woman who is comfortable being alone. I am competing with me. I am good on my social life being on pause and I am good on my own. Repeat after me, "This was my last year tolerating less than I deserve, even from myself."
There are miracles in me waiting their turn to happen, I am never giving up on myself. And that is the very reason sometimes a king is a woman.
You have always had the power my dear, you just had to learn it for yourself.
I am beautiful even in my darkness.
I am resilient and unshakeable.
I am an alchemist, turning darkness into light.
I am an unstoppable force of nature, and I am capable of great things.
I am naturally alluring and magnetic.
I am unapologetically fierce.
Now watch me as I rule my kingdom.
-XOXO
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