Do It The Angels Said, It Would Be So Slay

Do It The Angels Said, It Would Be So Slay

12/17/2023

The fact that you are not where you want to be should be motivation enough.

I had an interview today at 7am.

First, my alarm stopped going off. I was so shocked by the inital alert I honestly thought it was someone else's phone and I may quite possibly even be in someone else's bed. Turns out, you just shouldn't take 4 Clonzepam before an early morning. Once my eyes were able to forcefully open I realized the company for my interview was calling me. Oh my dear Lord in heaven. I hit the decline button knowing well enough not even I could pull off such an amazing Marilyn Monroe effect in this very instance. Immediately strucked with shame, I called back. I figure, hey- be a mess but do not be a no show. Thank you, baby Jesus because the nice recruiter did not answer my call. I threw my phone on the floor and went back to sleep. I generally wake up at 4:30/5 am and it was 7 o'clock. What issues are we creating today for ourselves bpd I thought to myself as I rolled over.

I finally awoke at about 11am. Missed calls and texts from two people (let's not use people like I have alot of them, okay), wondering my status of life. Mainly my father for a productivity report. I rolled over and took my adderall. If I was going to survive this day I was certainly going to need that. I quickly pondered on the self guilt about my interview. This is an amazing oppurtunity and the most important thing right now to my healthy mentally sane evolving self is supposed to be to get a 6F job. I thought, why do you ruin this every time. I grabbed my phone and I called the recruiter. I remember he mentioned he also has an opening at 11am. I thought to myself I'll tell him I called him back and see if he has time to chat now attempting to soothe my responsible side to myself. Lucky for me, he answered. Said he could reschedule for tomorrow at 8 am. Thank you, God. Saved by the bell, folks. One less thing I have to hate myself for.

Do it for the plot.

And what if it actually works out, B?

If you want to win this time, you have to move differently.

Erase the bad habits and the poor excuses.

The secret to getting ahead is getting started.

All we have is now.

"A woman that realizes her worth is a dangerous woman."

- Alicia Ramos

XOXO